If i had one wish, i know exactly what i wud wish for.
& the funniest thing is … i’d just wish that everyone was happy.
To let go of someone isn’t “giving up.” It just means that you’re giving them a chance to find happiness with someone who isn’t you. it’s sad. You’re always told that when you love someone, you’re trusting them enough to take your heart and not break it. In reality, most people start off a relationship worried. They’re scared of getting hurt, scared of being alone. Even if a couple are the happiest they have ever been … somewhere in the back of their minds is fear.
if i cud fall in love with someone who cud be my best friend, i wud be happy. If i cud wake up one morning and want to get up, id be complete. but it’s so hard to push, even the tiniest thing out of your mind. Suddenly, it’s like you find yourself alone again not knowing what to do. All you have is the music on blast staring at a pile of unfinished work. You have absolutely nothing on your mind, but you can never get anything accomplished. You’re heart stops beating, your feelings go numbed. Even moving your arm feels like nothing … Face it. youd become a doll living in a colorless world.
that’s how i feel every day of my life. Hiding behind a facade of smiles and energy. Pretending to be okay when all i want to do is cry. “they’d never understand.” “they’d look at me like i was crazy.” People have best friends and close friends. I have people that i destinctly trust with certain stuff.
So yeah, if i had a wish i would want to fall in love with a best friend. Because best friends are hard to find. Not like the people i’ve loved before that left nothing but broken promises. Not people who hold my hand one day and turn away the next. Someone who i trust with even my deepest secrets. Someone who i wudnt have to write things down to but say aloud. If i had one wish … I know whad i want.